Love Again

I am flying with my thoughts. Someone caught me and said why do you rush, we can sit and talk.
Feels better ha..
A long talk on phone with my friend..I am happy she calls me so frequently after I left my hostel. She miss talking to me. I am a big chatter box!

I again would like to speak today about “Falling in Love again and again”, which I spoken in my first post of this Blog.

Its quite normal and we all react in different ways. Especially girls pull this matter a lil too long and boys.. they limit the discussion. May be you can say me wrong , its my assumption.

Some of them think it as a big mistake, but I believe, it is as normal as we use our bathroom everyday.

If you agree that you don't suppress your love anytime, then you will surely agree you have fallen in love again and I do say you will fall in love again and again!

I feel we need to be open and let everyone choose their soul mates.

Under this sky, let me call it an Umbrella, I love the space that is left for a person, to share the rain and hot summer.

I love to listen those innocent buddies proudly arise and say “I am in Love again, Accept it!”

Love, Leadership , Entrepreneurship!
Last night I knew there is no definition to mean them. They are just there..as words and we do use them often, as they sound to be ultimate expressions..

how complex works ...

I had a stressful day. Still I do feel so.
Its about a Recommendation Letter.
I do not know how to ask someone to write good or whatever about me, or at least write about me. If a friend, Its different thing..I saw many friends asking each other to write testimonials..but its not quite OK to ask someone very elder than you, even though how close the relationship is, for a reference or recommendation letter..Mom never taught me this. I will not teach my children too. For me it is wrong.
Some rules, may be values which are inbuilt does all this.
But they doesn't work today.
Some tension covered my day. I struggled to do this. I want to relax and never think about this after today. I know it is not gonna end very soon , being in a research field, I have to get used to this..to move from one scientist to another, where my interest lies..or where the opportunity is.

I don't understand how people turn very complex quickly, its like going through many painful situations and coming to complex behavior. I mean to say its tough for me going through all these..I don't know how everyone learn things. May be I don't want to learn.

And I know it is boys who can teach girls to face hard situations. They actually teaches them softly. Boys teaches girls!

Daddy

I am always trying to communicate with you dad, I hope you can hear me.
As much as I think you in my whole mind, that much close you are, I can feel it dad..
My life is not the same as u saw
I dont beleive in souls, but a huge part of mine went along with you
How huge is known when I swim with our family, without knowing how to swim..
Your smile is shaking my nerves
I recollect every single moment, every day, my memory die for doing this..
Without any warning, any clue,any last kiss you suddenly asleep under that mud which I had seen first time
A recurring nightmare Dad, where to hide this..

Bi-Cycle-Adventurous vehicle

I had a problem of pocket money during summer holidays. If it is school, my pocket fills with dad's 10 rupees note..which he asks me to share along with sister, Mom's 2 or 3 rupees and never I had something saved in school bag, I don't need to save..I used get everyday my pocket full.

That is in summer my real problem starts..in the afternoon...Sometimes when I ask money to mom..for my bi-cycle rent(2 rupees per hour for small cycle) ..she sends me to ask grandma.
Its tough you know, to get money from granny's..my granny has a wheat, rice , chilly powder flouring mill..and I enter there, at the door entrance I sneeze loudly with all those hot chilly flavor passing in my nose..then I go stand beside her..for a long time..just looking at her..I want her to ask me , what I wanted..she never asks me..then I will call her "Jeji..rendrupayalisthava?.. panundi"( Granny..will u give me 2 rupees? I have some work)..as usual she says she don't have money..then I will show her money bag which she hides in her Saree edge and asks again to give...she won't...I take the stick form her hand with which she removes the stuck wheat powder in the mill and do the same work as she does..TO IMPRESS HER :P ...After every 2 minutes I will remind her about my 2 rupees..

I run to the cycle shop..with proud smile of earning 2 rupees..

With Cycle in hand..I go to the friends...we all go on cycle ride to the far fields crossing bus roads, bullock cart ways, and a small underground passage of a water dam.. holding cycle up on shoulders..and there we are to collect regi pandlu (pandlu means fruits), mulberry pandlu..and anything to eat, play..We find the big regi trees which are adjacent to hollow wells..and all of us come to one side of tree and pick the stones..start throwing on the tree..after 10 or 12 stones, one by one.. fruits start falling down..we all shout, "now stop throwing the stones", "One nice fruit fallen down", "That corner one near that big stone is mine, I am telling you all first only", "I am going down of tree, stop throwing stones", "Heyyy you don't shake the tree, the stones struck on the tree will suddenly fall"....its adventures for me...mom doesn't know what we all do here..no one tells at home..we finish eating of fruits before going home..on the roads..sometimes we stop at a place and clear good ones and keep it for mom or some one who praises us for bringing them..I remember I was so good at taking good fruits from my sister and some boys too:P ..they were sweet at giving!

Same Or Not Same??

If we are more liberal, more weird are our relationships- Sigmund Freud. I know about him Yesterday.
I got it, I know many examples to make me convince this. But today I know the reason, than knowing examples..i.e, “Liberal”.

Sticking and letting ..A fight of my age.
I stick today..I suppose..try to stick..
It is not independent to be..to be liberal..which is quite fine when I don't bother anyone. But when I know my purpose, I stand there to complete them ..then I don think of being liberal.
Now my question is, when does a Man thinks or wants to be Liberal?

Right n wrong,
logical n illogical,
sense n doesn't make sense,
practical n not being practical..

Distinguishing these few things was something I learned from an year.
But being liberal n ____ ??? I don't know. I thought being liberal is something which will never stops..
We fight to protect our independent nature..away from restrictions..but I wonder, Independent and Liberal are same.

World Plays-On LOVE!

Nothing more surprising that a boy is following a girl. And we also come across a girl who is behind a boy.

Let us come to something different. Boy and girl are in love. They were not normal..

Before moving more, Shall we name them, to make our story a nice tale..

For boy let me choose a name from my school days English text
book..hmm..Jack..nooo..Henry...hm..na..hey "Pip"..how is it???
OK gal now..No more guessing..I will name her "allie"..she is a major character in "Notebook"..a novel/film...a happy girl and a happy woman..

Yes we move to the story..

He is tying the shoe lace..
Allie stays very close by to his place, they both stay in the same acre of land (in farm words)..
Pip moved out of his house, with a book in hand..walking on the road..a left turn and then a straight road...
HE SAW HER!
Allie..walking in a pink dress with a cover in her hand..in her own world..never know he is behind somewhere..

Pip didn't try to give her a call nor shouted to stop..he messaged..

"I saw an angel walking in pink dress".

Allie saw it a little late. Never replied back..She blushed...

It was not "A day", but "Everyday"...She sees at that left turn in a day ..till her eye needs him.

Never he appeared..and allie thinks Pip is lucky to see her that day..and she is not..

Almost a month past..in that same acre of land..they live..they never met..she waited distracting all the views in her life..to see only him...

Pip loves her.

They both know a language. Always they meet they move their language to miles ahead..when they don't meet their language puts them stable!

They, in this world for each other..Wait!.... World plays..months, years..these are stupid.

Part closed!

Back to Archive!

It was yesterday..I again came back to college life ..into a hostel.

10 years of hostel life. Not a silly thing to leave. A lot of people, lot of learning, now a lot of teaching at times..

My room accommodates 3 people. 1 is yet to come. Last night, I woke up suddenly around 4 o clock, and saw a tree in front of my room, it just came to my mind, I am in new place. I don't see any tree in my previous place..not even think what I see. It is all new from morning to night ..

Hostel is like a collection. My point of collection mean very simple. It includes armful of fiction, non-fiction novels, true stories happened, in present generation..some pen drives jump form room to room to share that romantic movie..bucket full of gossips (even if water is not available), snacks bought from hometowns...

In girls hostel (especially in colleges) the most exciting thing will be, running to be first in every place, from bathroom to bed..a competitive air everywhere..I realized, I never said, “its boring, to sit simply” during college. Time runs rather than flows..

I can say people in love will miss some kind of hostel life by sticking to their very cell phones. Singles always have more to do here.

A transition from college to office and then again from office to hostel made me mature. Now its fine whoever my roommate is, I am excited to share my room with new people, starting with new adjustments..I don't always want to be cheered up anywhere but when I'm feeling stupid, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little. I am far from the feelings of self-hatred and shame, feelings like guilty when I disappoint people, hurt when someone misunderstands me, expecting too much from myself and life, fearing being abandoned. So ..it is just easy to be anywhere. At this point, it's nice to remember the strength of a few long-gone friendships. And It's time to release these things and make space for new people, new ideas, new possibilities.

At night “Little Rascals” ..movie..made my sleep start with happy face. Movie full of small kids. A small boy ALFA ALFA in love with a little girl..a comedy movie. Children does comedy roles naturally. Before bed, I was wondering what if my little son in future comes and says “ Mom! I am in love with a girl”. You know I will hug him and kiss for saying so sweet thing...may be I will be proud of him.

Yes! I forgot to say about Library. Common guys.. I am not gonna say about kind of books...but about weight of books. We were asked to help in arranging the Library. We unpacked the boxes of books and arranged in Library. Very fat books, Very very fat books..left my fingers with cramps..but I could never really touched so many books otherwise..I was watching at the cover pages, while arranging some journals into racks...Once it occurred, I should read all these books. It is fat idea you know..for a person like me who is a free reader rather than a research reader...But exploring library is not yet adulterated for me..it is a great pleasure to gather information.

Open to know about my likes....in this new place and expand my love for writing!

a lil future for fun :)

I touched my hair around 100 times from morning..and was admiring people who create shampoos..they kill my hair with chemicals..but still I use them for the feel they give..even while writing this ..I touched my hair twice..Suddenly I remembered..once I read in a book about describing personalities.. in that they say...people who touch their hair repeatedly feels themselves as very beautiful in looks...I stop my hand for a minute. But...you know..it is wrong....it is shampoo...nothing else makes u touch the hair. If dove people reads this..they will arrest me...for copying their famous ad... :)..

After a movie is released, they sometimes show us making of the movie, removed songs from the movies, removed dialogues, scenes..etc..Yesterday in TV... I saw an ad of a new movie "Pyaar Impossible" , which is still in making stage...and they have a website created, to show their making...amazing idea of course!..but I was wondering in future what more amazing things will come up...may be " a website where u can be a scene chooser of a movie, and include your selected scenes from a list of scenes in the movie and buy the CD" , " a website where u can change any of your favorite hero and heroine in the present hero, heroine's place..may be not respectively also..(wink wink) and watch the movie" ..anything may happen. That day I will watch all devil movies keeping my favorite actresses..WOW!! how nice to watch Arundathi( a Telugu devil movie) with Julia Roberts as Actress..

Its free here..to write anything and everything..Yes! this blogs are pretty free for all of us....

They dig n dig the soil..and explore those computers and struggle for years to know what it is... and come out reading a page like this..they will know we had some thing called shampoo, TV, Movie, Heroine, Devil, CD, wink wink etc.......hey I am speaking about our future...like how we dig for ancient sculptures, our future digging for our information in these blogs...

fun!!