Saturday, July 23, 2011

hrudayama

prema nijanga vuntundha?
yekkuva anandam vasthe hrudayam pani cheyadha?
yendhukintha sunnitham e manasu?
bathakatam intha kastama?
neetho matladalani anipisthundi

What does she do on Sunday?

My friend woke me two days back early in the morning. She rarely calls me.
My bachelors college mate. She discontinued in her 2nd year to get married.
I was upset on her for few days for quitting studies in between.
She called me that day morning and requested me to wake up.
I asked her what is the matter.
She said she need a help.
I was sure, she was in some problem.
"My son's teacher asked him to write an essay on what his mom does on Sundays, can you help me saying sentences in English?"
I said OK. When I was done with translation along with some spellings, she thanked me and hung the phone.
Enough work for my brain that morning. What not went through my mind. Guilt, anger, hopelessness.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Diamonds..Pearls..

AM I looking dull??
No I guess
I wore nice silky top today for sometime
Not so dull
I came early from office
Surely not dull
Bought chicken to cook
Of course I am not dull then
No radiant words-energy is absent
I repeat the same again
If I am dull
Diamond thoughts as I dig
Mud filled madness
When did diamonds lose their value
Should I myself clean the mud on them
I was not a pearl to come from those soft cushioned shells
When I am alone I can imagine people sitting in some distance to me
And seeing at me
I hate them all ..whom I can see like that

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Men & Their Strange Food Habits :)

I was sitting in the cafeteria this afternoon, at one corner table along with my team mates eating my lunch.
I was the only girl and all of them where guys at that table.
Remaining girls in team are in either girls groups or paired up with some particular guys..
I sit with these guys group who talk much about politics, some graphs and few of them imitating girl voices..
They are funny mostly..but when all these wont tickle my laughing buds, I stare at the crowd around me...
I covered all the girls in the office, I know which one wears which ear rings for particular dress and I know who is wearing new anklet that day.. I am so updated you can say..
The second thing that makes me curious in canteen is the boys with lunch boxes.
I have done a cupful of analysis on this, still learning more..

Age: Below 23

These guys don't bring any boxes. They are more in the phase of exploring food, they might take some more time to realize what they are eating outside is not healthy. However, there are few guys who bring a decent box sent by their mom's. I consider them as the one's who either spent many years in hostel and just returned hometown to work or they have a strict mom who is particular to carry the box. I am in favor of the last category in this group...who falls into lower middle class and willing to send some money to their parents, so they get up in the morning and cook some food or they have a small family in town who cooks and he don't have an option of eating outside often.

Just before marriage or newly married:

This is the most commonly seen group in the canteen.They are also most confused group. I saw on one Friday a guy keeping his big lunch bag on table, took out a small colorful tube from that bag and poured something on his hands..It took me a minute to realize that he used hand sanitizer before eating. Then he opened Maaza bottle which he purchased from the canteen (may be he thinks his food tastes better with Maaza around) and poured it in a Tupperware glass he bought form home. He was kind enough to offer the adjacent guy some Maaza. No shame the other fellow drank almost everything..anyways then this guys took out nice lunch bag with three small boxes in it..he took three spoons and placed on each box. I didn't understand his logic..may be he don't  like to use single spoon for three different dishes..mm mm..how does it matter..he puts everything in his single mouth.. lil too much hygienic habits...
And then, on the other day, I saw this guy who brings a box and starts distributing it to all the girls around..then only I realized why this guy is flocked with so many girls all the time..what a trick..easy one ah...
And there is unique set which I shouldn't forget..they are health conscious guys..who goes to gym at times..thinks they have got nice body..they bring boiled eggs in their boxes..I saw a guy eating 4 eggs one afternoon and I even saw more than 4 girls watching him in @#@)#$*. I dunno..what these guys feel..he he..they can eat those eggs at their desks itself and on top of that they catch these diet cokes..I am sure they wont get the girl nor the body..useless try..at least not something that can be tried in office..

There are few happy souls in this group, they are newly wed uncles :P  They bring lovely boxes with some cooked and uncooked dishes (you have to understand that his wife might be new to kitchen)..but still happy to get rid of daily canteen food..and they start speaking about the box and share it with someone around and make them feel bad about what they are eating. However, these are the only happy souls in this category..vote goes to them.

Married souls

I appreciate this group for their consistent and patience to carry their boxes everyday. Cheers to their early waking wives. But sadly the secret these ladies sitting at home doesn't know is, their husbands don't eat those love packed boxes daily.
One day, I saw a man, must be in his 40s, opened a box, I think there is some vegetable dish in it..he saw it for some time..almost with hatred on his face, kept it aside and went to canteen took a chicken curry and happily ate.
Day dreamers come here... this batch tries to remember their below 30 aged weekends and they open their boxes along with coco cola bottle beside..poor uncles must be missing their parties. I at least feel so. Sad for them.
Finally, I don't want to talk more about some sophisticated boxes of managers. They eat food and read 'India today' kind of books beside..sitting alone on one center table. They must be eating some maid packed food for sure. It would be perfectly filled with all the items that he likes. I ignore this batch...they dunno how to spoil their healths and appetite. Coco cola batch stands happy in this group..

Girls: Anything that can be understood and analyzed is written in detail above. I don't try to know or think of girls food habits. Its too complicated.If you know please tell me :)

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Tired of People

After beating myself with work so long..
I sat a minute calm..
Experimenting by wandering or doing something to find right format of relaxing
Suddenly I try to became an empty wagon on a busy road..
I have an empty mind but words are in the mouth
Nerves are bribing me to take rest..
Forgive me all the people who love me..
I am so very tired..
You guys pls keep with yourself all your intricate problems
I am always looking for my own escape..
May be out of the world or too high that no one is looking for..
Living on the margin is my style and like this I am always ready to live or die..

Super proud

 My little brother is no more little.. He has grown up so big that now he went to a new country to study I feel quite proud of him and also ...