Friday, September 28, 2012

20km, 2 rupees, 20 paise, 7th class, 12 bananas, 30 minutes-Dad!

Africa was a mystery to my mind. And I never got to read about it. But sometimes, you ought to read by force. Then only I got to know about it, in more detailed.
We always like to say to people or try to potray the problems we went through are toughest than any and no one can understand them. My eyes went blind for a minute when I saw and read about poverty in Africa. Poverty is something else. I always thought what I went through is the most tough of all. I do not even know the pinch of poverty. Yet I turn out to be smart dealing with small problems in life and those people die dealing with worst form of poverty.

My next two days are well planned and I am supposed to be sleeping to get up by 9a.m and go to Rebel movie. Morning shows are comparably cheap and these days I starting preferring those shows by sacrificing  a bit of weekend sleep. And then donno the reason exactly, though all people predict one reason, I am so happy from last two days. Its been quite so longg long time I see myself like this. For myself, I find new. All these ten people I forward this must be laughing at this line. I know.

And then, I bought a temptations run and raisin choclate and had it listening to some old telugu song and thinking of my father's teenage. He once told me, when he was young, he along with his friends in village used to take their bicycles and cycle about 20km to reach nearby town. It is actually not so big one though :P They all had only 2 rupees each and with that, they used to go to a movie, after which eat 'Ugaani Bajji' and come back by night to their village and they still had 20 paise or so, which he never told what he did, but now I assume, he must have spent on buying 'beedi's. Too bad of me, but I knew my father used to smoke from his 7th class, hiding himself under a stone in a well. And his teacher sometimes send some students to bring him to school and he always escape. Donno why he was so keen on seeing us study and work, though we both were girl kids, I never heard him saying he wanted a boy neither he appeared unsatistied having us. Always he was proud of us and celebrated each of our small achievements, be it be small birthday ocassion. Once, when I was kid, I ate 12 bananas in the bus in 30 minutes, and he told this his entire life to everyone so proudly. I think I never will see such innocence in my life again.

 

Sunday, September 23, 2012

నిద్రపోవాలి

మీదికి  వచ్చాయి 
ఆకుల నడుమ నుంచి దూరుతూ గాలి మెలికలు 

నే పడుకుని ఉన్నా 
ఆకాశానికి భూమికి అతి దగ్గరలో 
 
నా చూట్టు నల్లటి మట్టి 
దాని వాసన
 
దోమతెర ఒక వారగా తెరిచి 
చిన్నగా నా ముఖం చేను వైపు,  ఆకశం వైపు చూసా 
 
ఇంటి దగ్గర చాలాసేపు ఏడ్చి వచ్చా చేనుకు 
బాబాయి తో పాటు కావలి కోసం 
 
కొన్ని దయ్యం కథలు గుర్తుకు వచ్చి 
వెంటనే మూసేస దోమతెర 
దయ్యం అందులోకి రాలేద నుకున్నానేమో 
కళ్ళు గట్టిగ మూసేసా 
 
పడుకున్నానేమో 
మళ్లి అలా చేయలనివుంది ఇవాళ 
 
మా చేనులో 
మా వూరిలో 
మా ఆకాశం వైపు చూస్తూ 
కంటి నిండా నిద్రపోవాలి 
 
 

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Cute Notebooks!

I got this new netbook as a surprise gift from my sister and I write this first post in it with so much luxury of having my own device where I can save something for long. More than anything it is appearing to me as a secret friend next to my dairies and cute covered notebooks. My handwriting has lost its beauty without practice just like me, people tell me that I look more pretty from last few weeks and then I think you gain back somethings when you think they have value in life.

My questions on individualism have not revolutionised in me rather they have moved to some corner part of my heart and now I start saying I have soft corner to Ayn Randism. How bullshit!!

I am still surrounded by people with extreme emotionalim and other with extreme logical tendencies in life. I get confused dealing with these both kind of people and to my surprise I dont belong to any of them but always prefer to have them around. Both kind of people bring some insecurities in life. For that matter anyone can get into this insecurities trap just by being in madness on anything. Like corruption in modern world, society is also suffering from fear of love. In modern world, love has became a project and people act calculatively, the more given the more expected..just like an client deliverable. If my mom would have been so, I would never had that memory of tightly holding her and sleeping when I got typhoid in college. Those days love was a moment. When their loved ones are in pain, the moment not spent with them is the momest wasted in their lifes. Hm, I am talking about 'good old days'!!

This city after six months turns to be not bad for me. I am waiting for winter now. Though it appears to be scary with people's narration of cold, I want to check the same. And this new chai shop I go, reminds me of my earlier chai shops in bangalore and hyderabad and same time those friends. Metro has became another favorite thing, where I can see so many girls, their dresses, their chappals and the books they read. Girly ah!!

'Sugar Street' book I bought from Nepal, has beautiful words to push me into deep thoughts. I always remember good things about past, that is another gift of my mind. I couldnt avoid my thoughts from office in last few weeks, in spite of great happenings in my life and I questioned all my friends around on forgetting office matters in home. Nothing helped and even for that matter 'Sugar Street' did less. But I forced myself into it. It is beautiful to read words. I am developing this new love for literature and sometimes I read a paragraph with half apple head and I try intensly to read again. Egypt must be a nice place. I would visit sometime. And 'Good Well Years' book had left me with such a beautiful child like feeling. I correlate all naughty things of childhood with that.

Why would someone on this earth spend so much on me when I myself think so much to spend on me? My sister must be either mad or the one from 'good old days'.

 

Super proud

 My little brother is no more little.. He has grown up so big that now he went to a new country to study I feel quite proud of him and also ...