Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Lazy for title

How can something smell so suddenly?
I was reading seriously and suddenly noticed some rotten egg smell in my room. I dunno whom to tell now and I write. Please don't read..it is for myself!

I think this is coming from outside otherwise how can it come so suddenly. I sprayed perfume all over the room..I did it as I see it in an ad these days...forgot the name.. something that people spray just before guests visit..but what is this smell? Like detective I checked all cupboards, fridge, under the bed and opened window too. It is smelling bad outside too. I wish now I had a roommate to engage myself, at least to give more ideas to detect the smell. Once there was a power cut whole night, then I could wake the girls in next room to company me..now I cannot tell, it smells in my room..please come and stay with me.

Last Saturday, I happened to attend my first party in Delhi. On a roof top..candles lit around the wall...with twenty bewildered bachelors..some Spanish women with their notable dresses. After rejecting the invitation for couple of times, I gave a thought to give it a try. May be I should know what they are..and could be..when the clouds reached the road beside the house, making the whole sky dark, people opened their beer cans and vodka bottles...with cheerful mood and lot of excitement. Three of them passed bottles to me and I said I don't like the taste. Gave a damn if people thought me escapist, but it was not new for them to hear things like this. Like in mute some questions I could hear, I tried to answer to myself. My mind was fading, losing and just came the thought of my beautiful evening in Bangalore. Like a place which is untouched by human civilization, my heart is preserved with those memories..untouched! That day I wore a white trouser and my old top of college days and walked while it is drizzling to the nearby cafe from hostel. I was excited to see the expression on his face. My heart was on my feet.

Spent many hours drinking strawberry shakes....like last time in my village..it was alive and soothing..he etched on my mind. I went into my cocoon when the crowd around me went for another drink. After the initial introductions people have made their choice of friends and choice of groups and started socializing. I think it is called so. I who sat in between four walls for four months ventured out thinking life will not come to me if I sit with talking walls. Yeah they talk to me to tell get out. Like fishing in pond, people are moving from one person to another..when they found a fish in one pond, they go to another..how many fishes?

I thanked my manager for the first time..as many people around here not ask 'where do you work?' but 'what is your position?' and I realized why they have this fancy designations at my office..anyways coming to party...it was just about to start and I saw the time and said goodbye to all and left the place. As I walked at 9.30p.m on Delhi road alone to reach metro station 100mts away..I realized I was not there in the party..though physically I was standing but my mind was far away. In metro I starred at each girl and tried to figure out how they would reach their homes this late..I hoped silently that they knew to be safe.

People nod to your opinions only when you stick to some rules in forming your opinions. Such a bullshit driven mass. Opinions come from experiences and rules are unnecessarily created to avoid random opinions. So, it is not wrong to have any kind of opinion and learn to say cut the crap when some one talk rules. I was wondering these days what do they call a gal who is called 'sex columnist' in India? Probably they call her a girl from family of bad moral and ethical values or someone who needs counselling to live in India..or ..are we changing...SATC made me wonder if there are any one like Carrie in India.

My fodder for today seems to be over, I feel hungry and this room stopped stinking..I donno if room's do have smell as one of their sense..I would want to shut my senses for now..night night...don't let the bedbugs bite..









Sunday, July 8, 2012

I lost Race...You better soon!!

The country is still suffering from rulers.
I dunno what it is exactly called bureaucratic or something like ruling..but everyone want to command others.
The one who does it smartly is called leader and the one who is ruled by them is called stupid..most of the times. Fact is there are no leaders and stupids in this crazy freaking world. It is just a survival tip. A better survival tip!! And a race in which you are hung to the tail of a mad donkey which is running without any direction. A mad donkey is someone who is commanding you.
Everyone plans on you. Play with your mind. You give chance to them to play because you think you will get something out of it. In case if you are trying to get a lesson from others by giving a chance to them to play, you are an easy prey. And never join the word 'love' in this streamline. Such a deadly combo, that can never be resolved.

Contradictory! Love is such a beautiful thing, it surely does deserve a separate line to talk from the above things. It is something wordless at times. It is like a moment to be stolen. Always know that a one who plays the above game on you will keep playing that game. It never stops. And Love is different from this. There is no learning from people who are called leaders and people who portray them self as one. You only learn a better survival tip from them..may be few tips. But you will not learn love, you will not earn love and you don't plan to give love. What is the need of living hundred years learning how to survive? Live your life! Always adore what you have and take the love when people are giving. The donkey's race will never end!







Wednesday, July 4, 2012

నువ్వు చందమామ ఎపుడయ్యావో..

 చంద్రుడి మధ్యలో ఆకాశం ఉన్నట్టు అనిపించింది 
మొదటిసారి కొన్ని నెలల తరువాత  చల్లటి గాలి వీచింది..


చిన్న చిన్న మేగపు ముక్కలు చంద్రుని చూట్టుత చాప పరుచుకున్నాయి 
కథ చెబుతాడెమో చందమామ...


నీటి లోపలి అందాలు నీటిలో వాటికే తెలుసునేమో 
ఆకాశం తర్వాత అందాలన్నీనీకు మాత్రమే తెలుసు కదా...


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నీకులాగే ఆ హృదయాలకు మాత్రమే తెలుసునేమో వాటి నిజమయిన అందo... 


నీకు ఇవాళ  ఒక విశయం చెబుదామనుకున్నా కాని 
సాలె గూడులా నా మదిని అల్లుకపోయి నువ్వే ఒక విశేషమయ్యావు...


నెమ్మదిగా నా సమయాన్ని నీ వడిలో చేర్చుకొని 
ఆ  కధలేవో జోకొడుతూ చెప్పవా 


నే నిద్దురపోతా....



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