Are you not bored to live like the one everyone wants you to be
People's double life's makes me nervous
Take off your masks
Am I taking the path that no one is taking
Feeling like something has stolen my appetite
I sleep everyday to wake up whenever I want
People in this world are so adamant to accept honesty
I wonder why I want to treat myself so good
Sweet words never bring faith on people...know to filter those words
I cannot live with inflexible people..they make me behave more weird
I wear this big watch and have no polite ears at times
I want people around me and then feel alone between them
May be this is rare
Not everyone has same thing to do together
I am bored..people doesn't interest me soon
Faded fear, dead dreams and dull road..no knots to tie my mind
Well. I guess it is fine to be disturbed. Lessons come only then
Hero to Zero and Zero to hero..its just the way I want to put things
Should I make all this as a poem or write up..is this what we are living for
The years, I am living, after you are gone, need remedy every second
Mom, you have turned my obsession from that day...I don' t regret it any time
You left me to die everyday

Last Friday Morning

Morning 9.16 a.m
I stared at the lines on my blanket
Might be making my mind for this Friday
I calm down closing my eyes slowly
I had no stress in the whole week but I am in good mood in the weekend
Where should I go this weekend?
My throat is stuck with infection
I took a cough lozen before anything in the morning
I thought about my body inside, how it feels to have something like that in the morning
I pity it
May be it wants all fresh fruits and vegetables inside like how enjoy greenery outside
I rushed to the flower pot outside the house
They died!! That two plants. I bought them with so much difficulty
I am the culprit. I wish someone arrests me for this. I really wish so
Guilt didn't stay with me long, so shameless me. I went into the house back and tried to sleep again
Just want to forget what happened in the morning
While sitting in auto to reach office saw a school bus
I checked time..it is 9.55a.m
Can't say in these cities when children goes to school...may be it is also like office..they go in shifts or whenever they want to...
I wanted to get into the bus and hold the window and peep outside
Am I lost. I feel very uncomfortable while writing somethings
I dunno when I developed hatred to wait for lift and food in cafeteria...even to walk alone when it is raining!
mm..

Tillu

swethaaa

swetha ne perulone vundi latha
nuvve najeevithamlo mukyamaina katha
yeppataiki dhachuko nannu nelo devatha
naku telusu ne manusu suthi metha

Cleaning Spiders Today

I just got this new dairy (cute one ah:)) few days back..an empty book with green hut cover on it.
Have been scribbling in it some poems that are randomly bursting out of my high velocity mind....(NEVER LOOK BACK :D)
Its going to be hell lot of work in the next few weeks at office..
I still got enrolled in special aerobic classes at gym..
I was thinking at gym today that, I should write about a typical gym and people, their habits in gym.
And then I wonder how many people go to gym...not many ah! Otherwise, there can't just be 3 to 4 gyms in a techie crowded area.

Looks like my blog got some spiders on it...heee its been long time I visited it :)
I wish I know this computer stuff to repair...I wish I know what was the drive that my sister asked me to clean and reinsert into CPU...I took a month to do it. Finally, when I opened my gmails and face book...you should see my expression. They also got spiders :D It took an hour to filter all the replies for my Ph.D applications. No great news yet..mm

Meanwhile the most crazy thing that is keeping me busy these days is writing poems..
I am writing them everywhere...in office, lunch time, in auto, at home full time...
;) I feel like I am making sweets(poems) for festival (life is like a festival everyday)...

I was trying to remember dad's death day today. When mom was there she used to remind me of it...Now she is not there, I dunno whom to ask.
They both come in my dreams still. Previous day night I dream that she is still alive. I wake up in the morning and thought how great I am. I was proud that I can imagine her so neatly moving in my dream, talking to me and hugging me. What else I want. I would sleep forever for this.

 Orhan Pamuk's "Snow" is taking me to sleep these days. Its a scary novel for me. Too much english is scary sometimes..I read and read the same line and then in between I sleep. Nice logic to get u sleep..more powerful than any soporific medicine. Note this Insomniacs! Buy Snow book thats it!

And hyderabad has got some interesting news as summer is almost in the verge of closing its shop. People over here are buying mangoes everyday as if all mango trees will stop producing them next day. They see at them on the road as  if lovers see one last time at each other before leaving...summer is leaving! I also bought lot of mangoes today :P I was also one of those people :)

And then our team at office is in full swing these days..they started exploring many places around...they even went to zoo last week.. I am planning to buy a rabbit soon. I think I like rabbits after seeing one at my friend's place. Someone said.."Don't buy rabbits...they die soon and you will be hurt" 
Ha ha...