Clock is ticking in the background..going to be 2AM soon
I just checked tenth time if there are any mosquitoes in Arjun's net
I can't fall asleep easily today..infact for some days
I am too happy to sleep I believe
Our little Arjun arrived on 06th of August this year.
What a beautiful journey since his arrival
Such new joy life brings
As he stretches his hands and sleeps beside me, I feel so content and at the same time amused at his cute ways
He is 4 months two weeks now and can smile.. sometimes he smiles at people as if he has to smile becuase of expectation.. I wonder how he knows that
I could have never imagined such a cute boy in my stomach.. he is a peaceful boy...
I read to him "the hungry caterpillar" by Eric every day and he looks at the book so carefully
Going to office is the tough part of the day..somehow I am managing home and office
When I see him in video camera at work, I just close my laptop and run home..
It is like teenage love... unable to stop...I miss him even when he is sleeping on my lap..
Ravi is also madly in love with this boy and I cant stop admiring the way they bond...it is special.
I try not to dream his future, infact not even mine. I just want to live this minute.
There are days I thought about my mother and how she would have felt having me as her first child...I think that she would have stared at me at night while I slept..just like how I do now with Arjun.
Giving birth at 7th month and going through the emergency room for the first time in life, did give me new perception to life. Doctors in Singapore say "you will have fits followed by stroke if we dont do c-sec and remove the baby", just like "hey how are you".. When I first heard that sentence, I was all alone and I remembered shivering for 5 minutes. I had some time to prepare myself, but then what was I preparing for. Death was easy thing, living is hardest. I didnt regret anything that moment..infact I felt like women are prepared somewhat mentally they could die during delivery. After surgery, I didnt had a connection with the baby.. when I went to see him in NICU two days after his birth, I cried..I cried with guilt of not being able to give birth to perfect child..he had so many tubes around his body. One month in NICU went on somehow, swetha being in town, then pavithra, geetha.. sister made my life easy. I started working 2.5 months after delivery. Although I didnt sleep continously atleast 4hrs in last 4 months, I love it.
I just checked tenth time if there are any mosquitoes in Arjun's net
I can't fall asleep easily today..infact for some days
I am too happy to sleep I believe
Our little Arjun arrived on 06th of August this year.
What a beautiful journey since his arrival
Such new joy life brings
As he stretches his hands and sleeps beside me, I feel so content and at the same time amused at his cute ways
He is 4 months two weeks now and can smile.. sometimes he smiles at people as if he has to smile becuase of expectation.. I wonder how he knows that
I could have never imagined such a cute boy in my stomach.. he is a peaceful boy...
I read to him "the hungry caterpillar" by Eric every day and he looks at the book so carefully
Going to office is the tough part of the day..somehow I am managing home and office
When I see him in video camera at work, I just close my laptop and run home..
It is like teenage love... unable to stop...I miss him even when he is sleeping on my lap..
Ravi is also madly in love with this boy and I cant stop admiring the way they bond...it is special.
I try not to dream his future, infact not even mine. I just want to live this minute.
There are days I thought about my mother and how she would have felt having me as her first child...I think that she would have stared at me at night while I slept..just like how I do now with Arjun.
Giving birth at 7th month and going through the emergency room for the first time in life, did give me new perception to life. Doctors in Singapore say "you will have fits followed by stroke if we dont do c-sec and remove the baby", just like "hey how are you".. When I first heard that sentence, I was all alone and I remembered shivering for 5 minutes. I had some time to prepare myself, but then what was I preparing for. Death was easy thing, living is hardest. I didnt regret anything that moment..infact I felt like women are prepared somewhat mentally they could die during delivery. After surgery, I didnt had a connection with the baby.. when I went to see him in NICU two days after his birth, I cried..I cried with guilt of not being able to give birth to perfect child..he had so many tubes around his body. One month in NICU went on somehow, swetha being in town, then pavithra, geetha.. sister made my life easy. I started working 2.5 months after delivery. Although I didnt sleep continously atleast 4hrs in last 4 months, I love it.
