A bit cranky from sometime. Now its gone.
Have been obsessed with body shop products, body scrub, body polish, nail cream, face foam..peppermint leg gel, horse chestnut cream..so much to make me feel good. Its nice to know I started liking myself so much again..ha ha again and again. To make me happy I remembered all that I have to do. Each one's strengths needs to be awaken many times in their one life. Each one's I tell you. Otherwise they are often mistook as 'Once I used to be, Once I used to do'. Someone who know you can always make you realize those lovely qualities or strengths of yours. I kept my head towards right side inside my comforter and it took me sometime to realize that a tear drop has just dropped from my eye. Though I was thinking something usual, my mind has not still forgotten to think of those days of her absence. Those strings in mind always crawl towards her thoughts bringing those single painless drops from my eyes..like same how I started to write something else and started of something.
Village, Office, PG, some malls around.. being one small part, life has some meaning with love in heart. A chance to love. Sometimes we do not crave to take love, but to give love. This might also be fundamental, but I agree all these things are illogical. I don't understand how logical mind doesn't catch these things. Actually good for me. I don't care if it is logical or illogical as far as it keeps my mind in peace. And then, I have to tell my mind when it is alone, that it is happy. I have to tell it, not always worry about any painful thing that might come up, that might hurt this little heart. I have to tell it, I can deal with all of it. My lips smile and I forget that thoughts and get back to my phone.
I first planned to write about Jammu visit last weekend and as it turned out to be one of the scariest and painful trip of my life, I just don't want its space in my blog. To keep in simple words, if I had to stay another day more than three, I would have turned god hater. I better be a non-believer. Trips are also about people you are with. I remembered my Nepal trip all through the journey. Nepal was one of the best place I visited. I enjoyed my journey to Pokhara from Nepal so much, that I can recall many houses, landscapes, waterfalls, schoolkids..lake adjoining thick mountain with full of chirpy noises from one kind of birds..lot more. The only think that made me curious all through my journey is the thought of being close to some country which we always here as our enemy. The thought how people living there are dealing with that pressure everyday. May be they ignore it most of the time..may be not..may be it is beyond my thoughts. However, I lived just like a perfect beggar for two days, eating only food available, lying on a 2inch common wooden table where all the world without home is sleeping and beating myself with himalayan freezing cold in a never washed rented blanket....I am sure no one want to hear more...!
This tataphoton plus customer care lady calls me in the morning and asks if I want to change to post paid. In deep sleep, I told her 'first of all prepaid is working bullshit, gmail opens after an hour and I stopped recharging prepaid itself, why the hell should I take post paid?'. Taking a moment she hung the phone loudly..may be she just bashed the receiver on to something. But, I liked it. So much, that she had an attitude. She can say all bullshit like, sorry for that ma'am, we will look into it..and non-sense. She just hung..like it.
OKay my new ant-dandruff ginger hair spa shampoo is waiting..time to be fresh and get out my lazy mind out of this bed...
