Super proud

 My little brother is no more little..

He has grown up so big that now he went to a new country to study

I feel quite proud of him and also excited about his life in US.

He was just a little baby in our hands for many years, browsing through the old pictures made me nostalgic of him. 

I loved him all through the years, so did he.. always learning, caring and trying to impress me a little bit like a little boy.

To my dearest vamsi, I get butterflies in my stomach when you are happy in your life..when exciting things happen in your life..

Similarly I become quite sad if things go wrong for you. I want only best to happen for you but remember I am always there for you in your bad and good times.

Akka loves you very much.

May, June, July and August

 And just like that in 3 months time this little cute boy will turn 4 years old. Arjun is such a sweet boy, he talks so well, so cute, and he is such a kind person. I am so proud of him everyday. He is excited to go out all the time like mommy. Mommy let’s go for a walk.. longtime that we didn’t went for a walk.. he says 😆! 

This week are school holidays and I love it more than him having him around all day long. It’s like party whole day. We get tired but ah we are so loved all the time.. kisses, hugs and cute talking. This must be heaven.

I have to go to office more often and morning when I say bye to arjun he says stuff like, why don’t you work at home.. can I come to your office with you…and when I say I am going to hair salon he says let me come and sit on the sofa in the salon and wait for you.. he actually enjoys little talk with all the hair dressers and they also offer him lollipops.. 

He rides his bicycle like a pro.. recently he liked another kid bicycle more than his and he kept chasing samyik to give him his blue bicycle.. 

He like to watch teletubbies, peppa pig, galby doll house and a lot of train videos.. 

sometimes when I am sleeping beside him, I laugh for no reason loudly.. feels funny that I do that.. but I guess I am lucky to be so happy with him.

My junnu mommy and daddy love you so much. 

another day at another school

 eroju arjun kotha school ki velladu.. not first day but 3rd time going to the school... oka one week break tharvatha he went to school.. morning antha yedchadu school ki vellanu intlone mummy tho sofa lo kurchoni thintanu, tv choosthanu and yedchadu.. papam... class room lo vadalataniki vellanu.. teacher bowl lo milk and cereal vesi immandi.. junnu nannu thana pakkana class lo kurchomani cheppadu.. vadi separation anxiety choosi badhesindi.. kids ki school asal undakoodadu. 

 french english bilingual school..bad luck eroju classes motham french lo untay.. asalemi artham authundav.. i miss him at home..his touch, kisses, hugs the way i can lift him and walk around the house. evening 4.20pm yepudu authundho.

ipudu vadini junnu mannu konda ani pilustham.. mostly mannu ani pilustha nenu.. nicks names avanthaku ave vasthayi pettakkarledu.. junnu ani pettam kani vere vere perlu pilustham..

recent ga pretend play start chesadu junnu.. doctor laga, airhostess laga, inka restaurant owner laga cute ga aduthunadu.. e madhya legs ki massage chesadu ravi ki naku... almost half bottle baby cream rasadu

tv lo peppa pig and trains ante inka chala istam vadiki.. 

food ayithe pasta, chicken, pizza, coconut water are some of his favorites.

Songs anni remix chesthadu chala cute ga... picchi lesindha preethy, thaggedhey le, lanti dialogues chepthuntadu...dance vibe automatic ga vachesthundi yekada music vinna..."I i love you like love song baby" song ipudu paduthu untadu natho patu.. last lo baby ni "babybaby ooo" song tho end chestham idharam.. it is so much fun..

i miss him more.. 

3 years old Arjun

 Na chinni arjun birthday eroju

Rathri 12.55am ayindi

Arjun na pakkane Ala padukunadu 

Baga pedhayaka college lo friends tho, inka pedhayaka partners tho inka pedhayaka thana kids tho celebrate cheskuntadu thana birthday 

Last two hours ga thana chinapati 1yr and 2yr old time lo videos choosanu.. yentha mudhuga unado…

Ninna couldn’t complete the post..

Eroju vadi actual birthday 

Actual ga Vadu puttina roju antha blurry ga unnindi 

Indhake mall ki theskella vadi cake pick cheskoni vacha 

He was so excited

Cake paina trains unnayi almost jump chesi melikalu thirigadu

Vadiki cable car lo vellali ani undi .. chodham eroju thesukellagalamo

Nanna tho kalisi balloons udhadhu

Cousins antha call chesthu unaru 

School lo ninna birthday celebrations chesaru shy or fear teledu chala quiet ga unadu

I wish there are no schools for children

2.6 years and some new changes

 I did cold turkey method and stopped breastfeeding this week precisely on 16 Mar 2022. Two years and 6 months of breastfeeding journey is the most heartfelt experience. Being close to Arjun is such a gift in my life. I felt this is a major milestone for him. He took it so well, asked couple of times but never forced or cried asking for milk. He just behaved like he understood everything when I explained and didn’t bother me after that. I on the other hand can’t sleep a bit since three nights. Maybe it is the rage of hormones with sudden stop of  feeding or full of surprise on how Arjun took this whole new change. I miss his hugs and cuddles a lot. He still gives them but while feeding we bond so close. I enjoy the confidence that I can put him to sleep easily and he is so calm.

We are going to india the coming week after 2.3 years.. it’s weird I wasn’t excited at all to go. With Suri babai gone I didn’t feel much to look forward. Strangely last few days feel different, I am excited. 

A lot going on at work.. more like new people, different work but even that came through the mind while lay down awake wat night looking at little one sleep. 

I am planning a trip to Madurai with my best friend during this india trip.. not sure if it will all happen but if it does it is something so exciting to look forward to.

We made more friends in last 6 months than we made in last 3yrs in Singapore. I enjoy all the chit chat with women now. Baby entering in life has made me realise how I crave to share all the baby life and stuff with other mothers. 

Arjun loves reading books. Now he is at that age where he reads books himself.. I mean not literally but he knows the story and he turns pages and keeps telling the story to the book itself. Peppa pig stories are his favorite and he always takes side of George pig.. he says George want this and that and peppa is not giving so he is sad. Last night I didn’t put him in swing, he told he want to go into the swing and I said it is not working anymore. He simply believed that and didn’t ask after that. This is what surprises me. He trusts me and when you trust someone it is so simple and plain. 

Going to put him to sleep now. 

One year

 Wow telikundane one year ayindi blog lo rasi

Junnu gadu 2 and half year authadu soon..

Marriage ayyi 8yrs authundi

Time slow gane velthundi

Babu tho every moment bale undi

Mostly vadi hugs kisses and Ah twinkle in the eyes

Nenu paranoid mother yepudu vadi gurinchi worry authu unta

Maybe all mothers are same

Mommy daddy ni almost marchipoya ..atleast yevarina valla gurinchi matladithe emotional avvanu or badhanpinchadu 

Maybe it is the same with everyone who lose people.. time padthundi anthe

Emotional baggage ni vadileyatam logical minds ki easy nemo but emotional people ki time taking and slow

37 years rabothunayi but ippatiki yepudo chinnapati matters gurthucheskoni yedho feel authanu.. yedho just Indhake jarigina incident la.. 

Oka roju ravi cheppadu… I am shocked you cannot forgive yourself for what happened so many years ago ani..

Ha ha .. lopala alanti unforgivable stuff chala unnay ..anni bandh chesthe kotha person aypothanemo.. 

College days lo, new job time lo..money lekapovatam life antha athalakutham chesthundi.. ipudu money unte shares lo petti time pass chesthunte… excess money ki value ledu ani telustthundi.. ipudu problems vasthe money solve chesthundi but risk chesthene kada problems vachedi..annitiki achi tuchi vandasarlu alochinci adugu veyatam 30-40 age criteria anukunta..

Anyways yekado inka youth feeling untundi apudapudu.. face paina rendu dark marks vachayi.. aging vallanemo… potta cover chesa battalu most favorites ipudu.. nail paint lu, hair saloon lu, coffee shops, restaurants, food courts ilantivi thapa life lo panikoche pani yemi cheyatledu.. babu tho matrame meaningful time

Madhayalo koddirojulu naku prema kavali .. adhi idhi ani koncham thinking chesa.. tharvatha realise ayya yevarini vallu preminchukunte chalu ani..

No more hair color

 Somehow this feels like big announcement for myself

I decided to stop colouring my grey hair

I want to embrace my hair the way they are

There are many maybe’s but at the core I am not enjoying the dye usage and am always worried that I am putting junnu through harsh chemicals.. the residue always remain even after many washes.

Good luck to this new look which I always feared and I think am ready to embrace confidently.